At the request of my sweet hubby I have been looking for houses for sale in Oklahoma and the possibilities have me soooo excited! The thought of being near my beloved and so very missed family has me near tears I am so happy. I have loved being near my brother and hubbys family for the most part these last few years, but I am so ready for a fresh start and a new adventure. I am not giving up on what I have spent seven years trying to obtain while here in NV, but rather putting the past behind me, starting fresh and not worrying about trying so hard or seeking for peoples approval of which I will never obtain. I am ready to be near those who love us and have had to miss out on our life thus far. Though I will be leaving behind my very best friend I know things will be fine. I know that we will have one of those forever lasting friendships.
Is there a downside to this huge move? Sure! For one, I am TERRIFIED of tornados. Even though my nearly 79 year old Grandpa who has lived in OK almost his whole life has never even seen a tornado many others have. Heck, my Aunt Faye has had her house totalled twice. Scary how random it is. I don't like random!!
Other sadnesses....leaving behind my brother. He is such a wonderful man. We have never been apart for very long. I hate the thought of being away from my sibling who was my best friend growing up and such a wonderful loving Uncle to my girls.
The other thing that has been sitting in the back of my mind is my in-laws. But I know that moving away will really be best. I know that Ryan has wanted to move for years now and I have been the one holding us back in the hopes of something better than what we have as a family. I am now in the hopes that with absence the heart will grow fonder. All in all I guess I am just hoping that it isn't an entire parting of the ways though it may in fact be. As I never discuss family or problems with people, to those of you who read this, I love my in-laws. I feel that they love me. However, there has been a huge drift between us all since day 1 and we have basically no contact anymore which is probably for the best for everyone. But we all in some way or another do love each other and want things to be better. A solution just hasn't been found yet.
Enough of that. The list of things to do is crazy! We move in just under 4 months! May is just around the corner and with it comes so much packing and sorting to be done. The only time I can really get stuff done is once my sweet girls are asleep and then I have to be quiet. And Ryan is so busy. What with working full time, graduate school 3 nights a week, and Elders Quorum President it is a wonder we see him at all! Sooo much to do and time is running out! YAY FOR FUNNESS!!! LOL
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